thoughts and concerns

n is coming over for an early brunch tomorrow, and as i’ve forgotten the files i keep on promising her, it is going to have to be good. here’s what i’m thinking:

• poached eggs with some sort of cilantro or basil fake aioli, maybe some caramelized onions
• pancakes, made right with beaten egg whites, probably not by hand this time
• bacon from whole foods
• blueberry-ginger granita, depending on the availability/cost of blueberries (this could well turn into a grapefruit-ginger granita, for example. ooooh, that sounds good!)

i have to say that i’m getting really obsessed with granitas – in hot weather, they always sound so lovely, don’t you think?. do you remember when i was living in seattle and neither of my roommates were really into food? and so i couldn’t really cook anything unless i was intending to consume it all myself? yeah, that was a bad summer for food (though not for cherries). this summer is kind of the same so far, more just because i don’t know my roommates well yet, and i’d been living with my very accommodatingly hungry cousins, so in contrast, there’s quite a disparity. i wonder if people at the office would eat stuff if i brought it in. because, people, you know i’m at my unhappiest when i haven’t cooked in a while. and i haven’t – i’ve been too busy and i have no kitchen stuff of my own to be comfortable with and everything. and i need to cook. this is not even a matter for compromise. i need to plan menus, i need to cook, like i need to breathe. i need to plan the food for one of the office happy hours, because i sometimes miss being food steward, and i really think the food could be better (no offense, m and c, it’s just that i operate on another food standard).

really, what i desperately need is to have a dinner party. there is a dining table in my apartment and i mean to make good use of it. god. i need to chop things, saute things, otherwise i’m gonna self-destruct.